Chapter 7: Face To Face
Face to Face
‘Pride leads to destruction, and arrogance to downfall.’ Or ‘Pride goeth before a fall.’ Proverbs 16:18
The seventh deadly sin, Hubris, Pride. Something we have been warned about since the time of the ancient Greeks. We have all been accused of excessive pride or hubris; I am not innocent of this sin to say the least.
I too have been prideful about myself and it has led to some awkward moments. After my break up I was not exempted from hubris/pride. My pride of feeling rejected and hurt made me feel isolated and withdrawn. I thought no one could feel my pain. So I acted the way I did in the past and bottled up those feelings. A typical male thing to do, wouldn’t you say?
Yet as the days pressed on, I felt worse, not better. I wasn’t sure what to do until I came to the realization that my pride was holding me back. My feeling of embarrassment and fear of reliving those feelings again would be too much to bear. So I decided to open myself up to people, to bare my soul as it were to family, friends and colleagues and see what they would say and prepared myself for the on slot of accusations and taunts.
What I got instead was sympathy, understanding and reassurance from people. The support I received gave me strength and helped me to put things into perspective. To help me move on and to make more pivotal decisions about myself and about how I felt about her.
When I wrote this chapter I incorporated this epiphany into the story with the Captain’s acknowledgment of his need for help. He knows he can handle the situation but for the good of all involved he needs to swallow his pride and basically suck-it-up. Just as I learned to suck-up my pride and ask for help. To allow myself to openly feel.
In the seventh chapter, Face to Face, the Captain faces not the Baroness but her subordinate, a Field Marshal. He is disappointed and decides to try something different. Does his pride tell him that he has the upper hand or does he swallow his pride and recognize that he needs help? Will he finally see the Baroness peacefully or does he meet her at the cost of thousands of lives?
What would you do?